40 Years

40 years, W. says. It's that how long it'll be? 40 years of my idiocy … 40 years of stupidity … When will he be finally delivered from bondage? 

But he knows Moses died before he reached the promised land. Moses saw it, it is true, from the plateau of Mount Pisgah. The patriarch saw the fertile plains of Canaan, to which he was leading his people.

And W., who's leading no one? He sees only more desert, only the endlessness of my stupidity.